In the midst of unexplainable circumstance, confusion always gets in the way. No matter how you want to keep things in order still that never happens. That is because you believe that things will never be alright.  I use this corner to find my innermost self... I wanted to believe that there is bright light with the shine of a spark.  Just one little light to help one finds his way.   I am searching as anyone is searching the light.  Each of us has its own agony and whether we deny it or we acknowledge it we are all going to find our own path.  I am sure I will and you will, hang in there!